Having headache. :(

Life is really unpredictable. U could be in heaven one moment & next moment u ended up in hell. No warning & it Jux happens. No matter how reluctant u are. U Jux hafto deal wif it.

I dunno wat I'm doing is right or Jux living in the past. Seriously am so so reluctant to accept that things had changed & I am still trying to accept.

I dunno how to describe e feelings I am having becos it had nv felt so deep & pain before.

We were fine 4 mths ago but now we're on separate path. I dunno if we could haf a chance to work things again. I really love u alot & still misses u alot.

A fren kept telling me not to haf high hope & try not to bother. I oso wanto but I seriously dunno how to. How do I walk away from the person I love so much? How do I not bother about the person who I see her as the one & only?

I may seems strong on e surface. But I am actually feeling fucking lost & insecure inside. I dunno wat I shld do.

The only thing I'm glad is Tmr is Monday & work begins again. I won't haf so much time dunno how to kill & start thinking so much.

Guess I need to try to catch some slp now & stop thinking.