Finally I'm not occupied wif work. Becos I'm officially on leave. Supposed to be excitedly awaiting to go chalet wif family. But I'm Jux so scared now. Becos when I'm not occupied, all e emotion will come attack me.. Only starting work next Wednesday. Shit! I Jux wish time pass faster!!

I didn't know 3 weeks can seem so long.. This is really suffocating & I hope I haf the will power to sustain till end of e mth. Many times I Jux wanted to text u but I held back. Checking ur fb several times each day trying to see hows ur life been. Each time the feeling of me being out of ur life feels stronger..

I'm clueless of how r u doing.. Feeling helpless.. Feels like u're slowly drifting further away & I could only stood still & do nothing.

Mayb u tking these 3 weeks as a trial. If u realized u're able to move on without me by end of the mth den u've got ur answer tat there's nothing holding u back..

Mayb as days go by.. U find tat u're slowly getting ready to move on. But I wld Jux stood still here. I'll Jux try to stay strong & drag myself to move on by end of e mth..

Like u said before. Wat is meant to be will be. If u're happier leaving then I wish u best. U're not at fault, I won't blame u. It's Jux tat we're not in-sync anymore..

I know u've tried. But if we're not meant to be, I won't force u.. It's painful but I wld learn to let u go & move on. I'll free u from commitment to pursue watever tat makes u happy.. Cux u deserves it..