Alone at home now.. no mood.. wondering wat are u doing now??

we had a bad argument over sms yesterday.. i dunno wat r u thinking now?? i dunno are u thinking of giving up? I can only say tat this year is really a bumpy yr for us.. is it every long r/s will sure go thru this stage?

We had go thru so much, but we overcome all of them and continue to stand strong. but now we shake again becos of my family.. i hope it's a test of our love n there'll be rainbow after the storm.

all i can say was i really love u alot b. i feel tat we're made for each other.. becos we really make a good couple.. like i used to say.. we seems to gel so well together despite our differences.. this thing is so so special to me.. its like a blessing from heaven n it'll probably only comes once. i dun wanto lose it n i wanto cherish u till my last breath.

the feelings im having now sucks! i wish i could slp n dun think abt it but how do i slp w/o u by my side?? i dunno how to smile when i dun haf urs.. i miss u badly..

Contentment

Oh well, suddenly haf the kick to blog so here i am expressing my thots..

Alright, many big plans coming up in the next 2 yrs.. First, im moving house next yr and baby is renovating my house for me. Its both gd n bad.. Good is of course I had finally come clean wif da jie abt my r/s.. and though she still doesnt really approves but at least i had got her acceptance if this is really wat i want for myself.. also baby is able to interact more wif my family.. but my family is quite loud & messy.. hence, not everyone is able to accept or like them.. tats why baby n i had quarreled afew times over this.. sigh.. im really stucked.. both r impt to me.. i jux hope to live in harmony.. everyone live peacefully together.. the path ahead is gg to be bumpy but im not gg to gif up.. baby i jux hope u wld be more patient n try to understand n interact wif my family wif an open heart & mind. they're not like urs or the kind of family whom u'll love to see.. but life isn't perfect all the time.. i jux dun wanto let this thing to sour our r/s.. we had gone thru so much to be where we are now.. we had so many plans ahead.. i love u so much.. i really hope we could overcome this together yah? becos we're jux this "close" to attain wat we hope to haf in our life or r/s.. its jux another level which we hafto hold on tight tgt jux like how we used to n overcome it.. im sure we can yah??

Next, baby & i are gg for our reduction next yr.. wanted to go next february but becos my family planning to go on a family overseas trip since my parents aren't young anymore.. baby, thanks for being so understanding.. cux u wasn't angry wif me when i told we cant go next february.. im really touched!!! actually im thinking of mayb we can go in May? after i get my bonus in april mah.. hehe.. also i dun wanto keep tking long leaves since february im tking leaves alr..

Lastly, we signed up a taiwan photo shoot package.. it came unexpectedly.. seems like its fate.. cux it jux happens when we did not plan for it to happen.. haha.. baby & i felt comfortable abt it & so we jux went ahead wif it.. im so looking forward.. so we'll be gg to taiwan to tk photos and go on a honeymoon trip in July 2012.. =)

I mux say life has been good for me so far.. though i was feeling kinda disappointed awhile ago becos one of my colleagues had gone on non-shift before me.. well, its jux normal.. its a healthy competition.. but im okay now le.. cux i know there're still opportunities ahead.. im still young in the job.. i still had a long way to go so why worry?? jux saw 2 more new colleagues.. which means my chance to get a job rotation is soon on its way.. im wondering wat e bosses had in mind for me to do next?? hehe.. im pretty excited.. so now im focusing on training the younger ones.. i'll help them to learn as much as they can.. so that they can learn fast n stablize asap.. so i cld move on to the next level..

Contentment is the secret to being happy.. i might not be extremely rich, popular or good looking.. but im thankful for everything that i haf now & the ppl whom i haf by my side now.. i feel that im really blessed in many ways & i cherish all these.. =)

I feel angry for u becos I care. Becos I know u're seriously tired. I angry becos u always dunno how to turn ppl down. Why mux always force urself to suit them n not tell them wats on ur mind? Dun make urself so helpless? It's not tat u dun haf a choice. U haf a choice to speak up for urself. U always play along n tats why ppl always think tat u dun mind.

Mayb I care too much.. I shldnt bother so much n caused unnecessary quarrel.

U always expect me to accommodate ur frens but haf u ever thot for me? I alr tried my best le. Im always e one to accomodate.. Why cant be e other way round? Why we mux always gif in? Why cant jux say no when we dun like it or dun agree?? Why?????!!!!!!!!

Its been a long while..

hmm.. its been a really long while since i last blog.. reason for not being consistent in blogging?? PURE LAZY!!! wahahaha!!!

Life has been good for me so far.. Jux celebrate our 3yrs anni wif baby.. Jux wanto thank god tat i met her 3yrs back.. i really haf not regret knowing her n having her in my life.. she's the best thing tat had ever happened to me.. baby, i love u so so much.. thank you for being part of my life for the past 3 yrs n still so loving, caring & pampering me since day 1.. I hope u can feel the love i haf for u too!! *muacks*

Next, i jux got an promotion & pay increment!!! Woohoo!!! im really happy becos last yr there wasn't any promotion or increment due to economic crisis.. so i haf been waiting for close to 2 yrs n here comes my bosses' recognition & appreciation of my effort in my work.. *happy happy*

Tmr is baby's bday but still ain't sure if baby is able to haf a simple dinner wif us.. poor baby has been really busy due to a big big project.. well baby, i jux hope u wont be too stress out yah? U'll always haf my support, so dun worry n jux focus on ur work.. and of course make sure u won't tire urself out k? *hugs*

One last major event happening now in my life.. my family might be selling our current house n move besides my sis!!! Still at the discussing stage, eveything ain't confirm.. this wasn't within our plan n it jux happened over last sunday.. its an opportunity for all of us to stay close to each other.. also a chance for parents to cash out some money for their retirement purposes.. and a chance for da jie to tk our a sum of money since she has been financially rather tight (after getting married, getting a house & raising 2 kids etc).. and most importantly, is i wld tking this as a chance to do my house the way i wld want it to be n investing my CPF into a house at the age of 25!!! well, no pay no gain.. it wld mean tat i wld be in-debt at a young age of only 25 when i jux clear off my study loan n here comes a bigger loan!!!

But im quite keen actually.. cux it has always been in my list to invest in a property.. jux tat it came so much earlier than i expected n a loan tat i feel abit shaken initially.. jux met up wif the agent n had a family discussion.. if everything went smoothly, i might jux own a house by the age of 45yrs!!! wahahaha!!! well, wont rush into it but wld jux see how it goes cux this is gg to affect me for the next 20yrs..

blah blah blah.. there's nothing much left for me to blog le.. so im calling it a day n tk a nap before i go to work tonight.. *yawns*

It's been so so so long since I last blog.. Jux been too busy n lazy to blog lah.. Haha..

Well life has been good for me.. Jux finish paying back my study loan so am debt free now!! Woohoo!!! It's gd to be carefree n not tied down to any financial burden.. But funny saying.. Cux I'm still longing to own a car.. It has always been a dream of mine since young. It's like a big reward to myself for working so hard to achieve watever I haf now. But I won't rush into it as it's not a gd time to buy now. It's okay.. I'll work hard n save hard n own a babe of mine!! Hehe..

Life is still always revolving around baby, work, family.. Nothing special but am satisfied wif things now.. Hmm.. Wat r the plans we having in e mths to come..

Attending Herstory party n Universal studio in June.. Chalet in July.. And July is always e most exciting mth for me n baby becos it's gg to be our 3yr anniversary!! Wow!!! We've been in love for 3 yrs n still gg strong!! 

After being in a r/s for a long time, we may feel tat things r kinda routine or e passion is somehow missing. Baby fell into this trap sometime back. And honestly I'm feeling abit of this recently but am not having any doubt abt our love or this r/s..

Baby rem tat day we were talking abt all e 'wat if' questions at The Cathay & we both ended up tearing.. How silly of us.. Haha.. It's tat moment tat I felt e connection back once again so strong after so long. I realised tat I really love u alot.. So much tat jux e thot of u leaving wld make me feel like tearing..

We've been really busy wif work n dun haf as much time as before to spend time etc. Baby I can understand how u feel tat time when u wanted a cool off.. Due to my shift work nature n ur heavy work load, we gets lesser quality time n wif e little time left we wld always do e same things like dinner watch tv etc..

Humans always fail to notice e things or ppl right besides them n keeps looking out or new things or ppl to keep themselves interested. And when they look back, they'll realised tat e best haf been left behind by them n there's nothing they can do to turn back time.

Baby let's stay close n strong to overcome this stage together. Becos it's u who I still wanto haf by my side at the end of e day.. 3yrs may seems a long time but it's still very short compared to e journey in front of us.. So let's work hard to cherish the love we haf yah? Cux I'll nv want u to become jux my best 'memories'.. I want u to be my every best moments.. Lastly, I love u.. 

Many many updates...

Alright, first of all..

Ms Ding are you looking at this??? I'm finally blogging once again to entertain u le... HAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!

Oh well, haven been blogging for quite some time and i seriously dunno where to start.. have been busy becos of work & rushing to do the board & planning the surprise for baby on our 999th day anniversary.. becos im always meeting baby every other day so every min of my free time is so so precious.. im glad tat everything turns out well & baby is really surprise!!! she did not suspects anything & she was lost for words when she see the surprises.. *twist twist*

TADA!!! This is the board that i did specially for my love on our anniversary.. This is the first time i celebrate 999th day anniversary wif someone.. its been a reasonable long time & we went thru ups & downs.. no one can ever be perfect.. but when there's true love, u'll only see the good things & learnt to love/embrace the bad things.. Thus, baby there're a total of 99 reasons why or wat i love about you.. do remember to tk out the little note to read k? =)

Anyway, wanna guess where my baby is placing this board in her room now?? hahaha.. im quite impressed at how she can even thot of putting it there.. hahaha.. she's indeed my happy pill..
All i can say that the last weekends are really happening!!! We went for White Party, i gave baby a surprise & Kbox on sunday.. Woohoo!!! So activities packed & eventful.. but i really enjoyed every moment of it.. I had so much fun at the White Party.. Its been some time since i last enjoyed myself at any party.. And guess wat ppl?? This is the first time i actually puked after clubbing??!!! But dun worry, i did not make a mess out of myself.. jux feel giddy & needs to puke abit to make myself feels better.. AND GUESS WAT??? I SCRATCHED WATCH!!!!! Think i scratched accidentally when i was being pushed down the pool.. whenever i see the watch den i'll feel so sad lor.. =(((






Alright, as you can see.. I'm jux uploading the photos cux im lazy to continue typing le.. hahaha.. Throat isn't feeling well.. *sob sob* And i need to go watch the Hachiko show cux i haf been putting it on hold.. then i can start getting ready to meet eric 5pm at bugis.. Im so gonna be on time or even early if not i think not only eric but also baby wld slap me for being late again.. hahahaha..

Alright guys, till i blog again.. Chaos!!!

UPDATES!!! And preview of White Party @ Azzura

Its been sometimes since i last blog.. But pls be happy for me!! Cux the reason why i haven been updating is becos things r okay for baby n me.. tats why i haf been spending quality time with baby.. hehehe.. lalalala.. I'm a happy boi!!! =)

Anyway, a summary of wat happened over the weekends.. accompany baby do her hair extension on saturday.. kinda not used to seeing her hair so long all of a sudden.. but i mux admit tat baby looks good in long hair.. the money was worth spending..

Afterwhich, we sent madeline for her dance lesson before heading for sakae.. YES!!! Im eating sakae 2 days in a row!! Think im not gonna crave for sakae for awhile.. hahaha.. And i bought baby a HUGE rose while waiting for madeline to finish her dance before we head to O Bar to chill out.. Check it out!!!

Today met up wif nick to go sun tanning together.. I had a wonderful 1 full hour of tanning.. the sun was good and im satisfied.. though baby said i like nv tan at all.. but i can see tat im darker.. hehe.. cux i din intend to be burnt!! I wanto go tanning consistantly to maintain a healthy tone.. agreed wif nick tat we shld try to go tanning at least once a month or mayb if possible once every fortnight.. but when nick change job den nobody to go tanning wif me le.. =(

Anyway, we decided to tan at siloso beach today instead of the usual tanjong beach.. becos the toilet at tanjong beach is quite gross n i din wanto bath there.. hahaha.. i oso wanted to check out the new Azzura Beach Club where the white party is gg to be held.. i love the settings, it seems a pretty cool place.. am quite looking forward to 2nd April to enjoy the night chilling & relaxing by the beach wif baby n frens.. Woohoo!!! I shall let the photos do the talkings now:

One step at a time..

Its been a week.. we had some talk earlier on.. U mentioned that u still unable to put into words wat u're feeling right now.. U need more time to think abt this r/s & whether we're able to work things out.. U told me u're feeling better now.. everything may seem normal now but u dunno how long u'll tk to reach an answer inside u..

All i can say is.. My love, no worries.. pls dun worry abt how long u'll gonna tk.. i did not blame u or anything.. all i ask in you is not to gif up on me & our r/s.. watever or wherever went wrong in this r/s, we'll address to the issues one by one and pls haf the faith that we'll go back to where we used to be.. i believe we could as long as the love is still there.. we're jux gg thru rough patches in this r/s.. our vision may get blurred.. our faith/trust may get affected.. our thinking might get twisted.. but one thing tat hasn't changed is our love & memories..

Let's not rush & tk our time to carefully mend back the broken parts.. Lets tk things one step at a time.. At least now u've moved on from the anger stage.. we're one step closer now.. I know & understand that u still haf many doubts & questions.. u dun wish to feel this way either.. and this is surely not how a r/s is gg to work out. But dun worry my love.. u reacted like this all becos u really care.. the more u care, the deeper the cut.. i can totally know where u're coming from & there's nothing wrong wif u..

I jux wanto say tat u're the one i really love the most in my entire life.. I know in my heart tat u're the one i really want.. nothing can ever compares to u.. no one & nothing in this lifetime can ever replace u in my heart.. so i wld hold on & not go anywhere.. I'll wait & guide u patiently back to where we belong.. i want our story to continue & haf a everlasting happy ending.. the road ahead may be rough & tough, but i am not looking back.. i am looking forward to the day tat we'll close up all the gaps between us..

I love u & i'll always be...

Nothing compares...

Walking down brick lane, feel the blue.
Winds blowing lightly and i picture you.
Sweet sunday morning, with nothing to do.
Love is like a dream, when it's just me and you.

Open my window, sing me a song.
Baby can't you see that this is where i belong
With your hand in my hand, still feel the love
Really wish that we could go back to the way that it was.

They say if it doesn't kill you it'll make you stronger.
Oh, but i can't be without you any longer.
Everytime i let it go, baby it's you.
Nothing compares to you.
Nothing compares to you.

Sweet sunday morning, all by myself.
Hard love what we've done, when with anyone else.
Watch my mascara dripping down.
Baby how did we end up like this? where are you now?

They say if it doesn't kill you it'll make you stronger.
Oh, but i can't be without you any longer.
Everytime i let it go, baby it's you.
Nothing compares to you.
Nothing compares to you.

I'm running fast, as fast as i can, to get you back, just to get you back again.
I can not wait, i can not wait, if we can be, we can be us again.
I cry at night, cry at night, i'll cry for all the words, all the words i didn't say.
Sweet sundays, sweet sundays.

They say if it doesn't kill you it'll make you stronger.
Oh, but i can't be without you any longer.
Everytime i let it go, baby it's you.
Nothing compares to you.
Nothing compares to you.

I really miss u..

While preparing for work got reminded of e ring.. The feeling is so sad.. I lost e ring, something seems missing on my left hand.. Jux like u're missing in my life now.. It feels incomplete..

I really miss u alot.. Have been trying to get myself busy wif work n online drama etc.. But I know I'm jux hiding from the loneliness n misses I go thru whenever I think of u..

It jux seems so diff.. Cux almost everything ard me reminds me of u n our gd times.. I really love u wif all my heart. I can't imagine u out of my life.. I dunno how to move on.. I dunno how to forget u n our everything.. The love is still so strong how to stop n walk away??

I really dunno how or wat to do.. I miss u.. I really do..

I dun like e feeling tat I'm out of ur life. I haf no right to ask where u're gg, who u're meeting.. I feel so detached.. I wanted to be close but I haf no right to interfere ur life..

Mayb I was too hopeful the past few days. Think I shld try not to hold too high hopes..

The feelings is really sad now. It felt like I'm losing everything. Whenever I thot of yesterday incident I jux feel so angry wif myself. How could I ever lost it? Isit a hint to me tat I'm losing more than jux a ring?

I dunno wat to think or feel now.. I shld jux try not to think abt it jux be emotionless if I can..

Things were actually looking better but this hafto happen at this time. Once again I feel so helpless n lost.. Is heaven playing a joke on me or wat??

U seemed so calm why I told u abt it. Are u really ok? Or do u feel upset? Angry? I hope so.. Cux at least u care.. But pls dun care tat u're not important. Cux u seriously mean alot to me.. Tats why I been wearing e ring everyday cux it's a symbol of our love.. But now I lost it.. I tried my best to find it back but I failed..

Thinking am I losing jux e ring or everything together wif it?? Am I losing u?Can we work things out?? So many questions on my mind but there's no ans.. I'm really scared.. Wat if I'm gonna lose u.. Jux like e ring.. So unexpectedly n ridiculously.. How am I gg to move on???

Wtf is gg on? I'm so fucking angry wif myself!!! This is so ridiculous n I cannot understand how.. Why mux this happened at this time?? ARGHH!!!!!!

I'm sorry..

I'm sorry for all e misery n heartache u going thru now. U do not deserve these at all.. I hate myself for all these!!! I could not forgive myself for causing u to go thru all these..

Wat can I do to make u feel better? I wld do anything & everything as long as u wld feel better.. I dunno why things wld progress to wat it is now?? Mayb it's fate? Mayb it's a test?

Watever it is.. Pls tk care of urself. I'll always be there though u may not want me there.. U may not trust me anymore.. But i believe one day u'll believe in me again.. Cux my love is here to stay wif me for as long as u want.. Hugs!!!

I dunno wat to feel..

I dunno how to describe the feeling tat im having now.. its a mixture & complicated.. Replied to ur email yesterday.. wonder if u've alr read it.. and whether do u understand or accept wat i was trying to tell u..

Im feeling really afraid n lost now.. i dunno wat are u thinking or feeling now.. i hafto admit tat my heart sank when i saw ur email.. a breakup was nv wat i expected.. i know u'll be very angry n pek chek.. but i totally nv expect u to wanto end this r/s.. my world seems to haf collapsed.. it felt like a knife haf stabbed into my heart n i dunno wat to do.. i called but u dun wanto ans.. i dunno wat to do.. this is not wat i wanted.. i was waiting for u to cool down & i'll start to explain n make things right for us..

U told me to type u an email if i got anything to say.. but i jux can't sit down calmly n type u an email.. im so afraid of losing u.. i feel like banging my head against the wall.. im so angry wif myself for wat is happening.. so i decided to tk a risk to go down ur place to find u..

I know u're pissed when u know im outside ur door.. im sorry.. but pls dun be offended.. like i said.. im not trying to force u or anything.. if not i cld haf open the door wif the keys.. i still respect ur decision whether u wanto open the door n let us talk.. im jux too afraid of losing u.. i cannot allow a breakup w/o communication & a decision based on ur misunderstandings..

I dunno if im making sense to u when im at ur place.. i oso dunno if u accept my explanations.. u said u need to think abt it.. i dunno to feel glad or wat? cux wat if ur decision is still the same?? wat am i supposed to do then? whenever i think of it i'll feel so lost n heartache.. i lost the love of my life!! how am i supposed to continue from here.. I DUN WANTO LOSE U!!! I DUN WANTO MOVE ON W/O U IN MY LIFE!!! U'RE ALL TAT I WANTED & I LOVE U SO MUCH!!! I really need u in my life & i doubt i can ever love someone as much as i love u..

All our memories are making me unable to breathe n feeling suffocated.. this is the first time tat i feel so lost & heartache.. Pls.. can we dun end this way??? Pls dun gif up on me n our r/s.. can we hold on n work things out?? pls gif our r/s another shot.. i know the deeper the love, the deeper the pain.. i understand tat i really hurt u this time.. im really sorry.. but i really nv sway.. i still love u alot n love only u.. I blame myself for causing all these misunderstandings n misery now..

But can pls haf the last bit of faith n courage to try again wif me?? Like i said.. pls dun walk out of my life now.. i can't afford to lose u.. wat am i supposed to do w/o u??? i know u can't trust me now.. im not forcing u to accept me now.. jux tk ur time to gain back ur trust again.. i jux need u to want to move on wif me.. dun look back n always live in fear.. i need u to look forward wif me & i believe we wld work things out over time thru my actions.. i wld nv ever do anything tat wld caused u to doubt my love for u again.. gif me the chance to prove n show it to u tat u're the one i love the most & treasure so much.. i'll hold on n not gif up.. i'll fight for our happiness..

Still rem the quote i wrote on the V'day card i made for u?? "To love is to place our happiness in the happiness of another" I wrote tat becos it describe how i feel towards u.. i've alr pinned my happiness on u.. how can i be happy w/o u?? u're alr a huge part of my life, i can't lose u..

Baby, i really hope u'll cool down & not let ur anger tk over ur feelings/thinkings.. Pls dun make a decision tat wld let both of us suffer & always live in regret.. my feelings for u haf nv change.. it only grows deeper as time goes by.. I'll continue to fight for ur forgiveness & willingness to start all over again.. for u're the one i ever love so much before.. i still wanto haf so many plans ahead wif u.. i only want u in all the plans.. Pls do gif us a chance.. I've alr lost u once.. i dun wanto lose u again.. and definitely not to lose u for good.. I love u & misses u alot alot alot....

Sad..

Who is tat Maureen? Why u tk photo wif her like so close? Not feeling gd after seeing e photos.. But I can only blame myself for wanting to care too much..

I started everyday telling myself today will be a better day.. But emo-ness will always visit me n I'll feel so suffocated.. I start to ponder how do I managed to survive the last time? Den I thot of buddy.. She helped me alot during the first few days.. Really appreciate her.. But too bad. We had some misunderstanding n we've drifted le..

This time I can only depend on myself.. I need to perservere n stay positive.. But I really dunno how long this is gg to last n when will I hit my limit n go BOOM!!!

Been having e idea of gg tanning or watching movie alone.. Mayb I can plan tat on my next off.. Rather than always nua at home n feel emo...

Like I mentioned in my email to u.. I'm gonna respect ur decision of leaving u alone.. So I'm not gonna contact u..

Saw u online e whole day.. But nv talk to u.. U jux went offline. Wonder wat r u doing now & wat u thinking.. Watching tv?

As for me.. I jux keep playing restaurant city n watch drama online.. Now nuaing on e bed.. Switching from channel to channel to find something interesting to watch.. This is e time when how I wish I haf SCV..

Baby I hope u're feeling better.. I'm praying for the day tat u'll finally find the words to say soon.. Love n misses, muacks!!

Looking thru ur blog.. Really miss u alot.. Feel like smsing u.. But I won't cux I dun want u to feel pressurized or anything..

Jux feel real sad.. I dunno wat mux I do or say to earn ur trust. I'm sad tat things are the way they are now. I hate myself for everything.

Baby I miss u....

Persecuted!!!

U chose to persecute me for a crime tat I did not or even thought of committing. U rather let ur fear overule all tat I put in from my heart & soul. U left me helpless & hopeless..

Too little time for too many...

Sigh.. plan to iron clothes after got back home but not enuff time le.. cux am gg to tk my beauty slp in like 30mins?? hahaha.. all thanks to the 100 over company emails to clear!!! They're seriously spamming my mail every single day!!!

Quite an amount of things to blog so pls bare wif me yah?? hahaha..

1) AMIT Concert!!!!

AMIT Concert is a BOMB!!! hahaha.. oh well, mayb im jux a turtle hidden in the highest mountain tat i find the concert very fascinating.. or mayb its becos its my first time listening to ah mei singing LIVE!!! OMG!!! She's my diva of all time!!! hahaha.. Finally one of my dreams since young come true!!! actually i had another dream which is to watch Kobe Bryant play in Staples Centre LIVE while sitting at the front row.. hahaha.. doubt this dream will ever come true.. cux by the time i save enuff to fly to LA & to buy the front row seat at Staples Centre, think Kobe would haf retired le.. hahahah.. alright, enuff of day-dreaming.. lets continue..

Had so much fun tat night & i hope baby enjoy herself too.. Baby even sang along when ah mei is singing some of her sentimental songs.. hahaha.. And the best thing is baby promised to go wif me again when ah mei is coming again!!!! YEAH!!! But madeline u better come along next time k?? Its a pity that u din join us tat night lor.. if not it would haf been more fun..

By the way baby, am still waiting for u to upload the pics yah?? Cux its time to change my profile pic on fb & fridae le!!! hahahaha..

2) Valentine Day cum CNY

Am working day shift on both chu xi and chu yi.. how sad right?? hahaha.. but im totally cool abt it!!! know why? cux work will end at 6pm instead of 730pm on chu xi cux we're given time off to go home for reunion dinner!!! Also after working day on chu yi, i'll be off for 3days!!! Woohoo!!! Which also means tat i'll be able to make it for herstory V'day cum CNY party @ butter factory on the 13th!!! Am so excited & looking forward to go butter factory.. cux been there once for fren's bday party.. though its a straight club, i hafto admit that i love the place & the music!!! hope that it won't be a disappointment & we're all gonna enjoy ourselves tat night.. =)

3) Er jie back to singlehood

sigh.. this is a stunner.. after abt 4-5yrs of relationship, er jie is now back to singlehood.. and my sis is somehow the one who contributed to it?? sigh.. can't blame everything on my sis.. especially when comes to relationships.. its really hard to pin point to either party.. both parties had done their part and invested both their time & efforts to make things to work.. but sometimes when the gap is so great tat no matter wat u do could never bridge the gap ever again.. i hope there'll be no hatred & both parties to appreciate the fact that each had been part of the beautiful memories..

My family had alr so used to seeing kervis & including her in all our plans, but now everything hafto start all over again.. its quite a sad feeling.. cux no matter how much we like kervis, we also hafto move on jux like last time.. i seriously pity kervis alot.. i do not hold high hopes that they're gonna get back tgt.. hope she's doing fine & be strong to overcome this..


It got me thinking.. we really hafto cherish the person next to us now.. do not tk the person for granted.. it tks every single day/meet-up/words/actions tat we do to make things work.. never hesitate to tell or show how much the person means to u so the person will feel appreciated & sweet inside..

To the love of my life:

Though i've said this endless time.. but im still gonna say this AGAIN & AGAIN!!! Baby i love love u so so much!!! U're the best thing tat ever happened in my life & im still very thankful till this day.. we might quarrels at times, but i know u're still the one whom i wanto kiss before we go to bed at night & the one i wanto see the moment i open my eyes in the morning.. let us not forget how we met, how we finally managed to get tgt & how we spend our single day for the past 2yr plus.. lets make love to each other every single day (i do not mean literally making love ok? hahaha.. u shld know wat i mean.. hahaha..) & work towards a future tat only belongs to us.. hehehe.. Mmmuacksss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back in Singapore.. Back to boring work..

I'M BACK!!! Yes!!! Finally im back from the hectic & shopping-packed run-away in Bangkok.. Still nua-ing at hm at this moment.. cux lucky me has 2days original off after im back.. Tats 1 great thing about working shifts hor baby?? Dun u envy me some time?? hehe.. cux i got more time to rest n be mentally & physically prepared to go back to work..

The trip has been great for filling up our cabinets but not to our pockets.. *ouch* hahaha.. but i wld still say its all worth it!! cux wif the same amout of money, we cld buy so much more in Bangkok.. Think i dun need to shop for at least the next 6mths to 1yr le lor.. haha.. not exaggerating at all.. i seriously bought alot of clothes.. its indeed a fruitful trip for all of us.. We were still so worried tat we'll exceed the luggage allowance.. but luckily we din.. so wat does it mean? It means we did not shop enuff!!! hahaha.. we shall save more & go another time yah?? HAHAAHAHA!!!

Baby we shall change more next yr & bring more cash k?? Den we can buy all tat we want & no regret.. hmm.. Baby is upset cux she din get to do hair extension in Bangkok cux it costs like $300 singapore dollars??!!! Its so not cheap.. So baby decided not to do it & save the money for more shoppings.. Well baby, dun upset k? I check out the pricing from Terence & surely u'll get ur hair extension next time de ok? Love love!! *hugs*

Baby & i quarrelled few times during this trip.. sob sob.. but lucky we managed to make things up each time.. all thanks to our self-invented "peace button" & "love love love" hor baby?? hahaha..

Baby i jux wanto say im sorry if i make u angry or pisses u off big time when we quarelled.. But at the end of the day i still loves u as much as before.. It was jux a moment of hot temper & we wld do or say things tat are wrong.. I still enjoy myself alot wif u during this trip.. cux its our first time travelling together wif frens.. i hope u do so too.. I feel so xinfu when we were tking photos at the revolving roof top observation deck.. cux its our first time to the revolving roof looking at the city landscape of Bangkok together though this is our 2nd time to Bangkok.. the atmosphere was right & of course the person (who is u) is right..

I am looking forward to place our footprints together at other destinations next time.. it doesnt matter where as long as you're wif me.. I am looking forward to our future & path ahead becos i know you're always gonna be wif me.. I love u, the love of me life & my one and only.. hehe..

Signing off wif love, muacks!!!

Goodbye Singapore, hi Bangkok..

This day has finally comes!! We were all so excited n can't wait for this to come when we booked the tix.. BUT!!! We're leaving in jux 3hrs time!!

First for baby n I to travel wif frens.. Same for Eric n maddy I think.. Baby always wish to travel wif another couple n this wish has come true!!

Baby im so excited n happy tat I can be wif u to experience all these.. And i know u're e one who I want to hold on tight n walk tgt hand in hand till we're old.. I hope these 4days we're all gonna enjoy the best time of our lifes!! Thks everyone for being a part of this memory..

p/s: Eric tat fat pig overslept!!! Now baby n I are feeding 'wen zi'.. *roll eyes*