Lazy lazy..

hmm.. been lazy to update blog recently.. hahaha!! Cux during my free time, im either slping & after slping i'll be on my way to meet my love.. so no time lah!!! Dun always complain ok NGL??? hahaha.. i dun care!!! I jux wanto call u NGL leh.. how how?? U wanto bite me isit? Come lah!! I not scared lor.. HAHAHAHA!!!!

Am working tonight.. with a guy from another section whom i dun really like.. but i noe he won't wanto pok as he wanto leave on the dot.. hahaha.. jux hope everything will be smooth tonight cux am working as SDM tonight.. hmm.. more responsibilities & more things under my care.. =\

Heard next mth, gg to split between the 2 terminals alr.. Dunno how is it gg to affect the work.. things might be different.. ways that we used to do things might be different too.. well, this day hafto come sooner or later.. cux the master plan of PPT was to haf each terminal operating independently after developing to its full scale.. more cranes coming by end of the year.. more cranes means more vessels coming in.. which is to say MORE WORK!!! POUT!! hahaha.. Jux hope i'll be able to cope n excel during this transition period.. =)

Tmr & sat gg to Eric's chalet.. So gonna play ZHONG ZI MI MA & eat who will eat till vomit!!! hahaha.. And not forgeting watching movie & MAJONG!!!! wahahaa!!! But too bad, im working on sunday.. but after work can always go back there?? since its a 5 days 4 nights chalet?? hahaha.. Eric & maddy can be quite crazy.. first time heard of 5 days 4 nights chalet.. hahaha.. but well, they jux wanto spend some time tgt since poor Eric has been working night shifts recently..

Oh oh.. before i forgot.. My precious had a new haircut!!! After her haircut, baby came to fetch me from work tgt wif precious.. we went to a dog friendly alfresco restaurant within bishan park to have dinner.. so tat precious can tag along while we "lang man".. hahaha.. Another reason is alot of dog lovers wld bring their dogs to bishan park & they haf a field in the centre which is specially for dog to run ard or to conduct the dog training sessions.. But so so sad!!!! Not a single dog when we were walking precious.. Poor precious.. I thot she wld be able to meet some new frens n enjoy herself.. But she still enjoyed herself i think.. haha.. Btw she looks so fucking cute when her hair is short.. jux like a lil puppy.. Love it when she has short hair.. hehehe..

Lastly, come to the sad news.. mummy might be down with diabetes.. she's gg for check up @ polyclinic on 15th sept morning.. jux recall tat im having course on that day.. sigh.. won't be able to acc her.. Poor mummy.. though she always eat so healthily but she still suffers from high blood pressure & diabetes.. Can't imagine daddy's report if he's gg for a check up.. Jux like wat er jie said, daddy might not last long if he's really gg to stop working next time.. his eating habits r so so not healthy.. And he's such a stubborn old bull.. he won't listen to our advise.. =(

Listening to mummy's explanation.. it struck upon me that health is really impt.. we shld watch what we eats n our lifestyle.. so baby & i agreed to try to go jogging once a week.. not forgeting to eat healthily.. Baby, we mux chang ming bai shui k? Pls dun leave me alone.. i wld feel damn sad n angry wif u de ok?? oh oh.. talking abt lifestyle, baby so sweet.. she went to get cigarettes filters, so that her fingers wont haf cigarettes smell.. cux i complained to her few times before.. hahaha.. and with filter, it'll be slightly healthier?? haha.. Thanks baby, u're jux so sweet at times tat makes me love u to CORE!!! hahaha.. muacks muacks muacks!!!!

Its raining now.. rainy day, gd to slp.. mayb its time to tk a nap soon.. hahaha...

Disappointment in myself..

Sigh.. Work has been more & more demanding!! And needless to say, my stress level also goes higher & higher.. =(

More responsibilities & more work than before.. Being expected to do 2 persons' work load, expected to tk care of alot of things.. Being answerable for many many things..

Cannot SNA, cannot hold pilot, cannot early completion, cannot anyhow WT/relief, cannot let hauliers wait for too long, cannot anyhow divert containers, mux haf productivity of at least 3.5, cannot only run 1 crane, cannot back stroke (yet not enuff cranes/resources), mux do pinsmart/T40 etc etc..

So MANY things to tk care & above is jux not ALL!!! Been failing to meet expectations afew times recently.. I jux HATE the feeling of failing.. I always tell myself i mux do it! Fail this time, nvm.. Shall make sure i do it right next time.. Mayb jux like wat baby always said of me, im a perfectionist. So i cannot stand failure & very particular abt things & esp my work when bosses haf higher expectations of me..

I used to enjoy the higher expectations that bosses haf of me.. but now im feeling STRESS!! Why can't i tk care of everything the way i'm expected to?? I started to haf doubts in my capabilities.. Is it tat im not as gd as they think i am? Or i'm jux tking things too hard? Why am i still making stupid mistakes at this stage? I should not be making stupid mistakes by now..

I need to GROW!! I need to grow in my work & personalities.. I need to be more decisive & clear-minded.. I need to keep my cool in the mess of work & think wif a clear mind.. I cannot be distracted by other things or during exceptions.. I want to meet expectations & even to exceed them!!!

AHH!!! I want no more mistakes again!!! Unless its things tat im not aware of or nv come across before.. I wanto prove my abilities again.. I dun wanto be the weaker one.. I mux pick myself up & focus my work.. I dun wanto feel this way again..

Lonely sunday night..

Jux got hm from dinner & family time from da jie's place.. now baby is watching the singing competition "Xing Guang Da Dao" on SCV.. I dun haf SCV, so can only watch online.. BUT the streaming speed so freakingly SLOW!!! AHHH!!!!


So i decided to do some blogging here.. since i haven been blogging due to laziness & of course lack of time as i've been meeting baby for the past 4 days!!! hahaha.. And baby still not enuff.. actually wanted me to spend this sunday wif her.. lol.. silly ger, so glued to me arh?? hehe.. well, i haven been staying hm so wanto show my face abit mah.. we'll meet up again soon rite? And will be tking leaves on 1 or 2 sundays in sept to acc u k?? Love u, muacks!!

Actually, dunno where to start blogging.. hahaha.. but jux saw some photos on my iphone & jux feel like uploading to share share.. haha.. Alright, here they are.. =)




That's baby eating her fav strawberry ice-cream from Andersen's Ice Cream.. She nv fails to eat it whenever we're at IMM.. No matter how full we ate during dinner, she still mux eat it.. and she'll be damn angry if i dun let her eat.. hahaha.. see see!!! My silly ger so happily eating her ice cream.. hahaha.. Anyway, tat day baby specially wore tat outfit to show me.. cux i said she looks sweet but always nv wear to meet me.. lols.


Anyway, jux went to cut my hair not long ago.. not say very nice.. jux tat this time the fringe is abit diff from before.. baby said its a new look.. but i jux cant style the way tat Knight styled for me tat day.. ANGRY!!! Baby kept commenting abt the way i style.. Humf!! So angry till i went to buy a new styling gel.. hahaha.. actually i like my fringe but i need to style it the right way.. and i jux think tat my sides n back not short enuff to make it look more refreshing.. think wld be meeting Knight very soon again esp when my fringe grows longer.. hahaha.. Oh well, i see him like once every mth though.. hahaha.. =\

Met up wif baby after hair cut.. Followed by meeting nick n janice for dinner.. Nick is so sweet to make precious a towel.. saying its her advance bday present.. hahaha.. its a towel wif precious's name sew onto it.. now precious seriously has her OWN towel now!! haha.. Isn't this dog of mine leading a damn good life?? hahaha..

Stayed over baby's place tat night.. And guess wat?? I left my wallet in her bag AGAIN!!! YES AGAIN!!! I din even realised until baby msg me.. Lucky baby not very angry, if not my head is gg to drop.. hahahaha.. in the end hafto borrow EZ link card & $10 from baby's mum to go hm.. =x


Baby is so sweet!!! She write me a card & put it into my wallet since my wallet is wif her.. so she thot of giving me a lil surprise.. hehe.. THKS BABY!!!

TADA!!! This is baby's creation!!! hahaha.. she wrote onto her namecard as she said she couldn't any nice paper to write on.. haha.. den jux nice can put into my wallet.. hehehe.. den as & when i wanto see i can tk out.. hehehe..

And baby, u're so funny de lor.. Wanted to let me find out myself.. but u down there bueh tahan, ask me is there something diff abt my wallet.. hahaha.. So cute lah u.. But i seriously love the lil card alot!!! Cux its something did by u, and its very special.. cux its on the back of ur namecard.. haha..

hmm.. i dunno wat else to blog le.. and my throat is damn dry.. mayb becos of the aircon.. so i shall ends here & go get myself a cup of water.. hahaha..


p/s: Baby, lets seriously do something abt our weight yah? We dun always say say but no action k? hahaha.. so no more supper k? Pls oso do organize another badminton session.. Try to make it on a regular basis k? Kambatte!!!

Future plans..

Jux got hm from work.. Yesterday night shift was gd.. smooth & able to perform.. Boss said "good job" before he hang up this morning.. *twist twist*

Read baby's blog during toilet break yesterday during work.. so funny lah the entry.. cux its abt our random topic abt having kids next time.. hahaha.. Its like we go on & on, but in the end we decided to drop the idea of having kids next time.. hahaha.. Well baby, its not tat easy to haf kids.. especially when the family formation is "abnormal" based on social norms.. and its oso abt financial abilities & commitments.. its a huge responsibilities i wld say.. so we really hafto think twice.. but seriously, i wont wanto haf kids for now.. cux i noe i cant commit n be 100% sure tat i wld pour my heart & soul in caring for the child.. jux dun feel the "motherly love" in me.. hahaha.. so for now, lets jux K.I.V the idea bah.. =)

But i agree wif u baby tat we can't possibly be still hanging ard in town & clubbing when we rch our late 30s or 40s.. We need to rch another stage of our life.. Well, it cld means another level in our career or lifestyle.. i was thinking we cld travel more? and to countries tat we nv been before & always wanted to go.. im sure by then, we shld haf the financial means to start our tour ard the world.. hehehe.. tats one way to enrich ourselves & experience lifes tat we nv experience before.. Im sure we wld work things out along the way yah? Cux its still many yrs down the road mah.. so jux thrive in our career for now & enjoy our journey tgt.. hehe..

Anyway, talking abt future plans.. I had a heart to heart talk wif er jie during the loitering session on the 1st night in Genting.. She was sharing the idea of me buying the unit right besides da jie's place in another abt 3-5yrs.. den parents, she & kervis & of course me can stay tgt in the new place.. So its like the family can get to see each other more often.. We wld sell our existing unit & parents cld keep the profit from the sale.. cux they bought at abt $70k but now the selling price is abt $200+ k.. so er jie was saying parents cld enjoy their retirement wif the extra money.. Of course the downpayment for the new house wld pay using the profit.. den the new house wld haf my name since im the one paying using my CPF..

Im quite keen on the idea, cux all along i haf the idea of investing in property using my CPF $ den to let it rot inside my CPF.. Though i thot i cld invest in more central property or even private property & rent out.. but i think the idea of having the while family staying close tgt is quite a gd idea.. and parents can oso become better off & haf a better retirement w/o relying totally on us..

But i did tell er jie tat even if we all move tgt, i wld still cont to stay often at baby's place.. and she understands tat.. but baby, mayb next time can try to involve u more in my family? jux like kervis lidat? cux by the time im 30s or 40s, im sure they wld haf accept the fact tat im a les & u're my partner le.. hahaha.. well, im not asking u to be very close wif them.. but at least next time, we cld all go on a tour tgt if there is.. if not we wld always suffer from "love sick" when any of us is away on a family tour mah hor?? hehe..

I am also looking forward to baby's idea of moving into a double storey HDB next time.. and we cld haf a leisure room on the 1st floor, so when frens come over for chill out session, we won't disturb her parents.. and precious or precious' kid can run up & down the stairs as exercise.. hahaha..

Im oso excited abt designing my own house/room next time.. am excited becos i can do it the way i want it to be n not like some garang guni's room now.. =\

Alright, this entry is seriously long.. haha.. and castle tat im building jux gets bigger & bigger.. haha.. so gonna ends here.. and go wash clothes & socks.. iron shirt & nap before cutting hair & meeting baby & nick ltr!! Its gonna be a happy day ahead.. *nite nite*

Home sweet home..

Finally im back from Genting.. Jux woke up n showered but still feeling tired.. abit of headache too.. Think nv rest well the past few days bah.. so my body is complaining now.. pout!

Worked night shift on 7th Aug.. Came home, bathed & started packing for the trip.. Nothing much to pack also cux its only 3days 2 nights & about one-third of the time i'll be on the bus.. When im done, i typed baby 3 emails.. hehe.. one per day for her to read while im away.. den she'll definitely miss me mah hor hor?? Got miss me not baby?? U better do!!! hahaha..

Leaving on 8th Aug ard 8plus in the night, so i decided to gif baby a surprise before i leave.. so i "ba gat" wif Maddy.. hehe.. baby, i hope u're surprised n like the lil surprise i gave u.. though we had conflict ltr on but u noe i LOVE U alot alot de hor hor??

The trip is okay.. quite boring n wasting alot of time on the bus & checking in/out of hotel.. Rch Genting ard 4am.. Cux the bus dropped us at First World Hotel but we intend to stay at Resort World Hotel cux its better.. so Da jie before hand booked 2 rooms at First World Hotel for us to wash up n rest before we checked in to Resort World Hotel the next day.. So 2 rooms for 14 ppl??! So er jie, kervis n i started to loiter ard & chill at the Old Town White Coffee till next day morning 7plus.. Super tired!! Cux the day before i only slept like 1-2 hrs..

Went back to the room, n get to rest abt 3hrs cux da jie they all wake up n go down for breakfast.. So poor thing lah.. The room is freaking small den still need to squeeze so many ppl in.. Kervis got to slp ont he floor while er jie, me n daddy squeeze on the bed.. =(

Cux we need to check out by 1pm, so we woke up to bath n changed after abt 3 hrs den rushed down to meet the rest le.. And the best part is Resort World Hotel only haf 1 room ready out of the 5 tat we booked.. Cux the other 4 haven checked out.. So estimated the rooms wld be ready ard 4plus 5pm.. so all of us deposited my belongings at the only room tats ready.. den set off for theme park/casino/shopping..

I managed to buy a white belt from B.U.M equipment which can replace the white belt tat broke from TOP Shop. And its reversible so it can be black/white.. haha.. Gd buy for S$20 i wld say.. haha..

Next i bought a red/blue checkered short-sleeve shirt.. hmm.. i like it alot cux i always like checkered & i like the color n design.. Er jie said i look not bad in it, dun look very fat.. but not sure if baby wld like it anot.. cux she always dun like me to wear short-sleeve de.. Well, why i decided to buy in the end is becos i bought baby a red/blue checkered top too!!! hehehe.. so i bought mine so we can wear couple shirt mah.. hehehe.. so baby, u try to like my short-sleeve shirt k k?? hahaha..

Actually wanted to buy accessories for baby too de, but can't find any nice one.. so baby, i only bought a top for u.. Hope u'll like it k?? And "cross-finger" tat the size fits u.. haha..

Lastly, the best buy there for me is a pair of Adidas shoes which costs only abt S$68!!! hahaha.. i like the color, white/blue/red.. haha.. i always like shoes wif white as the base color and mixed wif abit of blue/red.. Again its lace-less!!! hehehe.. But its velcro across.. jux nice can match my newly bought short-sleeve shirt & when i wear white berms.. hehe.. okok.. Baby i noe u gonna say i buy shoes again?? So many shoes le still buy rite?? Pout! But very cheap mah.. so dun buy very stupid leh.. hahaha..

Alright, tats all for my shopping @ Genting.. Nothing much to buy le den we're so tired, so we went to Starbucks to chill till ard 5pm.. Den we walked back to Resort World Hotel to rest cux da jie alr did the check in le.. Later in the night, da jie brought us to a place called Mushroom Garden for dinner.. its jux a "zhu chao" store abt 10mins drive down the hill.. the food is nice n cheap but very dirty!!! I dirtied my jeans there lor.. HUMPF!! Cux we finally got a table $ was sitting down while waiting for the person to clear the table.. suddenly the chinese tea on the table dripped onto my jeans!!! Cux the floor is uneven so the tea on the table flow to my side n dripped onto me!!! Got so heng anot?? 14ppl but only me kena?? =(

After dinner, went back to hotel.. had a long photo taking session at the lobby.. den mummy suggested to go casino.. Since kervis is gg & i've been to a casino before, so i decided to jux go for awhile to see see look look & to try my luck.. and who noe mayb i cld win back the money i spent for the trip?? hahaha..

But the nightmare comes when i cldn't find my wallet.. I put it in er jie's sling bag before we set off for dinner.. but cldn't find in her sling bag den search high & low in my bag n room oso cldn't find.. So da jie helped to call the restaurant to check if they found a wallet.. and LUCKY!! TI KONG BO BI!!! A staff picked it up & passed to the lady boss.. so i din go to casino cux i got no money & no more mood to go cux of stupid argument wif da jie.. Anyway becos they're close for the night so jie fu n i took a cab down next day morn to tk my wallet.. Nothing is missing from my wallet, so gave her $100 but she refused to tk.. Shall go back there for dinner again next time if im gg Genting again..

Next day checked out at 10am, collected back my wallet den had KFC for breakfast cux frens been telling me the KFC in Genting is really nice.. hmm.. nice meh?? Same as singapore bah i think.. did some last min shopping after breakfast before we board the bus @ 1pm & home sweet home..

The trip home is not sweet at all!!! I was thinking mayb can rch singapore ard 7plus den can meet baby after tat.. but who noe the driver is so freaking slow!!! Can u believe i spent abt 12hrs on the bus!!!!! By the time i rch Boon Lay is alr 11plus in the night den still need to tk cab hm from there.. so can't meet baby le.. SO ANGRY!!!!

Well baby, im sorry tat i cldn't meet u in the end.. I noe u waited till very sian n upset le.. but i oso very upset & angry wif the trip.. cux such stupid planning.. wasted abt 40-50% of the time on the bus lor.. this trip is so not relaxing lor.. cux i dun get to slp well the first night, den next day got to rush here & there to check out den check in again at another hotel.. dne last day, got to leave so early at 1pm..

I really miss u alot & looking forward to meeting u when im back.. So happy & surprise when u called me.. But how i noe the stupid journey back can dragged for so long?? sob sob.. Tats why i sounded so sian yesterday.. Partly oso becos u sounded sian too.. i noe u waited till very tired n sian.. but u dun sounds even abit excited tat im back.. tats why i got even more upset.. like u dun seems to miss me lidat.. =(

Well, i noe u do.. if not u wont call me n said u can come pick me from my place after im back.. but jux tat ur tone makes me feel turn off.. sorry baby.. but at least im telling u now cux i dun wanto hide from u ok?

I REALLY MISS U LAH!!!!! But i working night shift today, so can only meet u on wed.. AHH!!!! Time faster pass can?? I wanto meet my baby badly!!! =(

Happy weekends..

Here i am blogging cux my gf is nagging again.. *faint* I thot i escaped the fate of having to blog cux i got baby to blog abt the steamboat & majong session yesterday but who noe my gf still "bu fang guo wo".. hahaha..

Well, spend the weekends at baby's place.. wanted to spend quality time tgt cux next weekends i'll be gg genting wif family & wont be able to meet baby le.. sob sob.. thinking of it makes me feel so sad now.. cux i wld miss her like hell lah.. so not used to not having her ard.. sigh.. Baby, pls rem to miss me hor?? If not i'll piak ur butt..

Well, friday baby came to pick me from my place after her meeting.. Baby is swt enuff to ask me to slp more n wait for her to come fetch me knowing tat i worked night shift the night before.. hehe.. feel so loved by baby.. =)

Had steamboat & majong on sat night!!! hehehe.. so happy cux i got the kick of eating steamboat n majong.. i even make precious wear the newly bought elmo singlet to welcome our guests.. haha.. even baby's mummy said CNY si boh?? Still mux wear clothes arh?? hahaha.. so funny.. And when baby's dad got hm, his face was shocked too.. think he's shocked to see so many ppl at his place.. he mux be thinking "wah, wat date is today?? CNY arh?? hahaha..

But i din expect so many ppl either.. zav n gen came after i showered.. den half way thru the majong, heard xiao bai n gf coming oso.. so ended up got 10 ppl (including us) at baby's place tat night.. even more than wat we had during CNY the beginning of the yr lah.. hahaha..

But i wld say its a gd gathering.. its nice to see so many frens gathering tgt n spending time tgt once in awhile.. and its not like the same old routine, dinner, movie, ktv etc etc.. but steamboat & majong at someone's place.. so i thot its quite interesting & special way of meeting up wif frens.. who say can only haf steamboat & majong during CNY or chalet?? jux come to hougang ave 8 lor.. haha.. hor hor baby?? hahaha..

Well baby, i hope u enjoy urself too.. Thanks for pouring me drinks when i ran out of it when im playing majong.. and being so sweet to offer to massage my shoulders half way thru the game.. hehehe.. Love u!! *muacks*

Too lazy to upload the photos.. Btw, photos can be see on my baby's blog.. hehe.. so tats it!!! Im done wif the blogging.. *twist twist*