Thinking abt our probs again..

Jux read ur blog..

When i was doing the calendar for u, i did notice tat we took lesser n lesser photos along the way.. But i think we did manage to haf a pretty long 'honeymoon' period?? Tat doesnt come easy i wld say.. and tats why i feel tat a r/s like ours is really hard to come by n i dun wish to see all the memories n efforts gg down the drain jux lidat..

Like we both said, we noe each other too well le.. Tats why things got more n more 'predictable' along the way?? Tats why when i do or make things for u, u're not as touched or surprised as before?? Does it really mean the love or feelings has changed??

Think wat u're missing is the feelings we shared during our 'honeymoon' stage?? But from the term 'honeymoon', we shld noe tat it's impossible to always stay in the 'honeymoon' stage forever rite?? Everything in life goes in a circle, we can't be staying at a stage forever.. Like i said, our r/s has moved on to another stage..

I believe it tk 2 hands to clap?? If our r/s has become like a routine den i think both of us need to do some self-reflection on our part?? Frankly speaking, im thinking shld i say this to u.. but haf u also realised tat down the road in our r/s, u've stopped giving me surprises or make things for me for a period of time?? U're always busy wif ur work n etc..

Pls dun get me wrong, im not complaining abt u or anything.. But my point is, if we're gg to try to work things out.. I cant be fighting alone.. I need ur efforts n commitments too.. I can't do miracle alone..

Like i said, i did not once feel tat im not loved by u even when we're gg thru the 'routine' stage.. think tats becos im contented to jux haf u by my side?? things aren't as exciting as before, but i appreciates the simplest things in life for the 2 of us?? Cux tats the only formula to make a r/s last??

So i think the first thing starts from the mentality?? If u keeps thinking tat there's a prob wif our r/s, something is missing which u dunno wat exactly it is etc etc.. I think its really hard to try to work things out..

We'll first need to accept the fact tat our r/s has moved on to another stage, so we can't keep the same mentality or keeps comparing to last time?? Cux its a diff love game now??

I really had no idea how long u’ve been feeling something is missing from our r/s.. But mayb I shld be thankful tat this person came along n place a threat to our r/s?? Cux it makes u not wanting to sweep the probs under the carpet anymore n raise the red flag n asked for a cool off??

I noe its hard to start all over again.. it’ll tk even more courage than to start a new r/s.. But for all tat we’ve gone thru n for all tat we’ve put into this r/s, can we haf the lil faith in our r/s??

When I was wif angeline, she did not make me haf the faith tat it’ll work out.. I jux can’t see her in my future plans.. tats why things did not work out.. But I do see u in my future plans.. I do hope tat u’re the one who will stay by my side down the road.. I really hope we cld overcome this tgt n not let it go easily..

Lots of thinking these days, im glad u make me think deeper abt our r/s.. cux u make me understand myself n our r/s better.. I do hope we’ll be able to grow tgt wif our r/s..

Lastly, I love u..


Misses, ford