When getting ready to go to buddy's place this morning, i sprayed the perfume u bought for me & i thot of u.. Den i wonder whether will u oso thought of me when u spray the guess perfume.. Hope tat u'll remember me by the scent.. tat is enuff to bring a smile on my face le..
When learning n exploring facebook, i am able to put myself in ur shoes.. Esp when playing the online game, buddy & i were both addicted n laughing during the game.. Den i thought to myself, tats why u'll spent so much time playing the game?? Esp when u're bored during work or nothing to do at hm??
When trying to improve the blog, it reminds me of the blog u did for us? I realised the time n effort tat is needed even jux to put up a simple blog.. Thanks.
Looking thru ur blog, seems like u did not post anything since march? Initially, i thought no new updates was becos u're busy n tired? But thinking now, isit becos like wat u said? U feel tat our r/s has become like a routine, tats why u haf got no update to post? So isit tat since march u've been feeling tat way but u kept this a secret of urs??
These few days really makes me think alot.. trying to think wat would u be thinking.. i then realised mayb i really did neglect ur feelings due to my work? Like u complained to me before, why i can't spend the public holiday wif u? Why my 6days off, i only spend wif u for so few days etc etc..
I also jux recalled tat recently u jux suddenly asked me how many more mths of instalments do we haf for the TV n computer.. isit u're asking becos u're thinking of leaving me n u wanto noe how to settle the costs of them? Thinking of this really scares me.. Cux it seems like u're planning to leave me though u nv say.. or u dunno how to say?
I felt tat i've been such a failure.. Why i nv sense tat u're not feeling gd all this while? Why mux i only realised when i see u leaving? Isit too late for me to do or say anything now? I really dunno..
Buddy asked me, do u think even if u two get back tgt.. do i think things will be back to usual? wont it be awkward??
My reply: Definitely, deciding on getting back tgt is not only by saying.. there's no pt of getting back tgt w/o solving the prob. our lifestyles wont change overnight.. furthermore, i can't possibly turn back time n bring us back to our dating or honeymoon stage when everything is so swt n simple.. we'll need to put in efforts to bring back the feeling of in love back into our r/s.. This will surely tk time n committments..
But the question is, is ur heart still wif me? Will you put in the effort wif me n believing tat we can overcome this 'routine' stage n bring our r/s to another level??
Endless questions, endless possibilities.. wat will be the final decision.. I really wonder, yet i dare not pin too much hope..
Will you come back to me??
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