Late night thinkings..

Im thinking abt wat u told me again.. im thinking abt our 'routine' problem once again during this lonely night..

I dunno since when u been feeling tat our r/s has become like a routine.. why is it u chose to keep everything to urself? why u nv voice ur feelings to me? why nv let me defend myself before deciding on the cool off?

Isit u think there won't be any changes? Isit u think tat im not doing enuff to make this r/s feel refreshing again??

Many things happened n many changes in ur life in this short period of time.. Ur ah pa issue tat resulted ur work load to multiply by TIMES!!! Ur parents issue tat saddens u n of course having to always be there for ur mum although u might really wish tat u no need to noe everything abt the truth.. cux it hurts u in either way?? We been having lil personal times for ourselves..

I dunno how long this cool off gg to be.. I dunno how much time u need.. i dunno how long i can cope wif my feelings n emotions.. Frankly speaking, im afraid.. im afraid of losing u.. im afraid of losing u after all tat we gone thru.. i cant afford to lose u in my life now.. its such a helpless feeling..

I wanto fight for u, but im afraid of giving u pressure.. i wanted so much to show or tell u how much u mean to me but im not sure whether u're ready to talk abt it.. i hafto tell myself to gif u time n space.. but im afraid wat if after all the time n space tat i gif u, u'll slowly get used to not having me ard??

Wat if u dun need me anymore? Wat if u dun see me in ur life?? How am i supposed to erase all the memories n the uncompleted dreams??

Am i right to gif u all the time n space tat u need?? Or im jux slowly losing u??

Im yearning for the day when u're ready to talk abt our problems.. im waiting for the day tat i'll haf u in my arms again.. and i noe i'll hold onto u even tighter than before becos not all r/s is able to come back for the 2nd time..