I created this blog so that i can write down watever im feeling.. cux i respect ur decision of giving u space n time to think thru.. So i dun wanto keep sending u emails n irritate u..
Received the sms from you on Sunday during work really shocked me alot alot.. I was shattered upon seeing ur smses.. Wat happened? Wat went wrong? Our r/s has become a routine?? Endless questions keep running through my mind..
Tried to control during work but still i went to the toilet n teared.. cux i nv thot this day wld ever come or at least i did not see it coming at all.. Like i said, u really caught me off-handed..
Tried to concentrate during work but can't help but stoning and thinking thru wat u smses me.. Has been stoning for days too.. cant slp well, cant eat well.. Cux im afraid i wld lose u?? Am i gg to lose u baby??
Tried to control during work but still i went to the toilet n teared.. cux i nv thot this day wld ever come or at least i did not see it coming at all.. Like i said, u really caught me off-handed..
Tried to concentrate during work but can't help but stoning and thinking thru wat u smses me.. Has been stoning for days too.. cant slp well, cant eat well.. Cux im afraid i wld lose u?? Am i gg to lose u baby??
I am afraid tat the next time i hear from u, it'll be the end of our r/s.. We've gone thru so much jux to be tgt n of course putting so much effort jux to be where we are now..
Routine? Like i emailed u.. Im sry if becos of my work, i let u feel lonely at times and caused u to feel tired in the r/s.. Mayb i really din try to better understand ur needs ever since i started working??
But is our r/s or love not gg to be able to overcome this obstacle??
Are all the feelings, love, efforts and memories gg down the drain???
Are u really able to let go of everything jux lidat? I noe i cant for sure.. Cux for me its not jux out of habit or routine, but i really do love u still.. This strong feeling has not changed since day 1.. tats why i been pampering n doing things for u to let u feel love, pamper n happy wif me..
We shared so many wonderful moments n times tgt, we oso haf many dreams ahead of us.. things seems fine jux a mth ago, but why after a mth, things can change so much..
I really hope u'll gif it a gd thought of our r/s n wat u really want.. Cux i dun wish u to make any impulse or silly decisions n ended up both of us will suffer..
No matter wat happened, i'll love u n i'll do anything to save our r/s.. I hope our r/s will be able to overcome this n be a stronger one..
Always loving n missing u, ford.
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